SMiLes.. mY FriEnd.. Sohair..
the “Problem of Being Different”..
the Problem of Not Blending in for surely
For those who Are Different WHeRE i LiVE
aT Least iN the Overall Metro Area of Pensacola
in Two Counties “the
Problem of Being
Different” is a Dilemma
i Faced from a Very Young
Age on the Autism Spectrum
Without the Ability to Put Words
ToGeTHeR as Speech anything but
Precocious until age 4 which actually
Even Sets me apART from Most Folks
Diagnosed on the Autism Spectrum
as i am and my Sister are STiLL
Specifically With Asperger’s
Syndrome as my
Sister Could
Speak early
enough as normal
but meanwhile what i took
in as the evidence shows so far
was much much more in all of what
the Environment Brought me also from
A Young Age of not even being able to touch
Man Made Materials as Nature was and still is
mY Best FriEnd as God WithouT Man Made Stuff
StiLL to tOuch at least but silk will do.. as long as
long as it is as smooth as silk.. oh and another really
big dilemma to no fault of my own with Long Eyelashes
and Eyes that change from Green to Pale Blue too.. confused
by the McDonald’s Cashier with Slender Form and Thick Blonde
Hair too at age 12 For a Miss instead of a Young Man then as i thought
to myself then i never saw myself as a Girl and now others Do what in the
World am i gonna do now to fix this situation as a slender boy with green
to blue eyes and long eye lashes other than get my Mother to Rush off as
i Panic then to buy me a set of Concrete and Plastic BarBell and Dumbbell
Weights as i stared to the Bench Press Ceiling with Bird Like Arms and Legs as it is True what now Leg Presses 1020LBs 33 to 50 times on a Parallel Leg Press Machine
that is much more difficult than a 45 Degree Angle Sled Leg Press were once
named by my Friend Tammy As Bird Legs then in Middle School.. just another
Story of a 99LB Weakling Boy who even After Lifting the Weights For A Year
Moving into Puberty Sprouting up to 5 Foot 10 just a few inches shorter
than i am now at age 13.. weighed-in all still at only 125 LBS with
still no measure of Chest or Biceps or Quadriceps then.. thing
is i didn’t give up i never gave up i will never give up
as that is what those Bully Boys Taught me the
Most when they called a Boy who Loved
Girls in even Romantic Ways
from Kindergarten then
the F Word and
Not Fred
And told
me that Boys do get to
Smile or Laugh with Joy then
at the City Park or in the Middle
School Halls or they will get even
more than Verbal Abuse.. so.. sure.. when
the Fellow African American Children were
Abused i stood up for them too as i was their Unconditional
Loving FriEnd even then.. in Middle School Ways of UnderStanding
how it felt to be the Weak Fish in the Aquarium oR even the Strong
Black Fish in the Aquarium being told you don’t even deserve to exist..
thing.. is.. my friEnd.. i didn’t understand the Science of Where i Lived then..
And No.. back in those days absolutely no one dared to practice a Muslim
Religion and ‘they’ even threw Bricks through the Stained Glass Window
of the Catholic Church as the same ‘Southern Baptist Good Old
Bully Boys’ Told me Love wasn’t allowed as i began to
Question then who in the world are they saying
they believe in as the Catholic Church told
Me Jesus and God only reAlly Care About
And Do Love.. but ‘they’ Called
Me the F Word for
Just Being
The LoVinG ME
And Not Fred.. yeah.. i remember
just trying to Play Tennis off the Back
Board at the City Park and those Southern
Baptist Boys named Billy and Greg Circling
And taunting me with Homophobic comments
i had no idea what they even were as the F word
NoT Fred didn’t make any sense to me as on the
Autism Spectrum aT tHat mArk of mY life Metaphors
And Sarcasm-like Speech Would be a Human Potential
like Biceps and Pecs and Quadriceps i Would Have to Grow
iNto WitH Much Struggle in Blood and Sweat and Even Tears then..
but you see being outcast i understand as a whole worse than tears
as being outcast means not having anyone to even share tears with at School
if tears are even allowed at all without someone threatening to beat you up too..
SMiLes.. mY FriEnd.. wHat i didn’t Understand About the Science of where i lived
then.. is that now finally they did a study on this place i live per the Actual Science
of Sociology and found it is actually the most difficult place to be different in the
United States of America with Factors Cited As Several Military Bases and Stations
in the Area as whole Ranging STiLL from Air Force to Navy to Marines and Army
Reserves too.. With Also The Record too for having the most ‘RiGiD’ Churches
per square mile that were still then and now of the Fundamentalist
Flavor of Christianity Most.. paying more attention to the
‘Letter of Paul’ that says you do not associate in
Church with folks who are different than what
we say you must do.. and yes be..
Than the other Letter that
Paul wrote that says
Gentile Jew Servant or
Free Woman or Man No more
all Live in the Love of and as God Free..
Yes that is just about my Favorite Verse for
what it reAlly Still Means to me in Holy and
Sacred Oneness of Purpose as all is God with
No Separation NoW.. so.. anYWay.. mY FriEnd i Will Be A First NoW
wHo STiLL Stands up to anyone who is bullying anyone heaR STiLL NoW
For whatever God Given Difference they may have iNherited/Bred through
God’s Human Nature or even if someone is abusing another animal as such
too.. even if that animal is deformed or disabled too.. and it’s true too
i don’t even like to see someone pull down a Ivy Vine off mY Shed
as material stuff we build becomes more important than any life
Even Plants as PaRT of GoD too FloWERinG ColoRs oF God
More iN Change oF Leaves and BARk of Trees too.. nah..
Not even Katrina as i will even disagree with her
as she is afraid the Vine Will Choke a
Building out that has no LiFE
at all other than utility
for me.. NoW
so after all of this
iS iT NoW Any Wonder Through
mY LiFE of these challenges with the
Additional Stigma of inheriting the Bi-Polar
Spectrum too.. and being discarded by nearly
all my friEnds i had ‘acquired’ through High School
when i had my first really Manic Episode at age 21
that i had never experienced before and had no idea
how to Regulate and Integrate in both Emotional and
Sensory way.. ending up in a place for some weeks that
tried to help me but had no idea what Asperger’s was then
as that meant that none of the Drugs they used would help
me then too.. come out of the spot of high i fell up to down
then so far out of MINd and BoDy SoUL BaLancE then as Being Human
Alive.. yeah.. i was terrified to even go back to a Doctor for 23 years as
they never did come up with a label for what i was then.. and it’s true i
almost got sent to an Institution Likely Heavily Drugged with Drugs that
only made the whole thing worse for me if not for a Family Member who
had Political Pull as a City Council Woman who knew who.. i was before
as the First Student with another one to be put into the National Honor
Society as a Sophomore at that time in my High School.. yeah number
11 out of a Class of 381.. too but with the Emotional Intelligence oF
A Person on the Autism Spectrum that was so literally Retarded as
Slow still then.. and On to Decades of Work Life Where i still
had little clue what it was really like to be in a Social
Circle to say all the things including Lies that
you had to do to fit in still then..
so.. my FriEnd .. yes.. is it
any wonder i
stick up
for folks who
are still different
now.. and am even going to the
Trouble to Write a Bible that’s longer
than any Bible Written in Human History
for whatever it is inside as i Dance Free in Public
to sHow folks who are outcast heaR that The Outcast(S) wHo Is/
Are truly Strong iN LoVE Free UnConDiTiONal WiLL NoT onLY NoW MoRE
SurViVE but Do Epic Stuff thaT no one has ever done Before.. Particularly
heAR.. wHeRE Additionally Another Study sHows as far as ‘White Folks’
Even go with Pejorative Terms too.. that this area too is on the Top
10 List of what some folks name as Areas of folks who are
‘White Trash’ too.. Heavily Addicted to Opiates
Poor Living Together in Trailer-Like life
As Another Stereotype Real from
Single Parent Homes
Socio-Economically
Disadvantaged as Many
African American Families are
too for the Pecking order of which
group as less or more than the other
in Ethnic ways too of bullying folks down
another level to attempt to bRing some sense
of Self-Esteem up Higher than so-called ‘White
Trash’ still.. and that’s the other thing i have come NoW
to understand too after years of not understanding that Bullies
are Never Strong they are only Weak for what they have not gained
in LifE as Love And Fearless WiLL and Strength in a Real Loving Now
Grace of Self-Actualizing Self Confidence too.. be who you are is what
i surely say now as far as anyone else’s Will No Matter Culture and or
Religion too as long as the other outcasts among us are not harmed
by anyone’s actions and they too can enjoy the rights here in
the US for Life Liberty and the Pursuit of Human Happiness
foR aLL.. God iS ReaL.. tHeRE is Zero Zero Point Zero
Zero No Doubt iN As ME.. and God is BeYond
aLl HuMaN UnderStanDinG alone as
We Can and Will Only iN Allone
LoVinG and
Respectful
ways hold hands
And Stand TaLL God ToGeTHeR NoW
LiVinG WiThiN too.. For iT iS iN LiGHT
Absolutely True NoW For What we Do to
The Least of God’s Creation even an Ivy
Vine GroWinG uP As ViNE THaT iS A Harm
Done that we do not have to do to Consume
Life as we all have to do with and to each oTHeR
to BasicAlly Survive NoW.. Yes.. to Respect to Cherish
And to Love aLL iN Grace and Gratitude is to Love God
to me.. and when we have to eat each other in all the ways
that comes.. Do Say Thanks for the Grace of the Meal at Life at Hand
still now.. and no.. of course i don’t literally mean cannibalism now or
the such as that.. but it does happen at times.. in Snowy Mountains
iN Plane Wrecks and the Such as tHat For the Greatest Gift.. We Do
StiLL Do is the Will To Survive that sometimes must Come Before
A Real Pursuit of Happiness if we even ever come to understand
what Love is when
Love Lives
Free within
other than
Harming others
in a competition of who
is Stronger and Richer in Material
Ways and the Such of that Fresh Hell
Flavor of Life as Humans Progressively
TrEnd More Toward Machine thaN HuMaN
FearlesS uNCoNDiTiOnaL Love.. No NO nO NO
i am not ashamed about anything aBout my LiFE
NoW For Even iN the dArKNeSS aS Abyss oF SouL
For 66 Months aLL oF tHat dARKneSS oNly PrePaReD
ME For A GreaTeST GoD LoVE iN Me YeT to CoME True
iF Not For Being A Discarded Seed On A Road WithouT Dirt
i Didn’t Lose
thE Faith
oF LiVinG
i NeVeR GaVE GiVE UP.. NoW
i Value The DARk FoR dArK NoW
iS LiGHT And LiGhT iS DArk FoR LiGHT
STiLL Fed Still Watered MaKinG mY OwN
Fertile SoiL and SoUL STiLL GRoWinG LoVE..
oTHeR tHan tHaT Thanks For Sharing An iNspiRinG Video..:)
Oh my Good Lord…i enjoyed reading ur comment a lot Fred…
(I never gave give up)….excellent..
Such a long journey of struggle…
The most important is that u became a defender of people who r thought to be different by others…
I wonder sometimes how a civilized society like US…STILL have people like those who are bullying others and attack weak people…
I was so upset one day when i saw the daughter of Michael Jackson on t.v and Oprah Whinfry was intetviewing her…she told Oprah that her mates at school are bullying her for no reason except that for she is the daughter of MJ…the rich man…
There should be strict laws inside schools and colleges to stop such actions…
I am proud of u Fred…u r a great example of struggle and victory…
God bless u dear…keep going and giving…
Smiles and Good morning..
It is 5:50 in the early morning in Egypt…
Happy Tuesday insha Allah..
🙂
♡
Thanks So much For Your Words of Support Soheir
And the Story of Michael Jackson is one Forced into
Fame and Fortune by his Father at a Very Young Age
iN The Years of ‘Normal’ Development of Child
Hood Stunted away
in a place he
could never
really
go back
in a never
land that would
truly never escape then
until death.. SMiLes mY
FriEnd while some folks
long for fame and fortune
i abhor even the thought of
it as plague for those who have
it lose real freedom just to be just
to be with no body guards and other
more restricted life steps stuff as money
means nothing NoW after Subsistence and
Shelter and Love Needs are met.. Science too..
Proves this too.. yet some folks keep digging
a never ending hole perhaps as the LoVE oF
tHeiR heART too was stolen away from Love
when young moving toward materialistic
things.. power and status and yes fame
and fortune for a space within that
is never truly overflowing as
Essence oF LoVE in JusT
A Container for that
Essence oF Form
iN Golden Chalice Way now..
Fortunately.. i am raised with very
little Money Full of Love and tHaT NoW
my FriEnd is Worth aLL the Materialistic
Riches of so-called Fame and Fortune in the
World for it’s true now too although i have not made
A Lincoln Cent off of Dancing Long Approaching 8600
Miles in Public now for 52 Months.. and People often
notify me i’m famous and even legend now.. sure that’s
better than being a shut-in for the 66 Months before that
in pain and numb.. but i already had perspective That gave
me For What is Real in life and Not Real.. Love is all that is
for me my FriEnd to Give and Share and Sure Muse with
Entertainment of SMiLes MoRE to inspiRe otHeRs uP
instead of down without even the necessity
of even one word now.. only Feet of Loving
Dance wHeRe mY Sandals are now
emBossed with A
Word Superstar
as purchase
for now with
bronzed feet
from sand and
sun chiseled aLong with
calves and thighs for all of those
close to 8600 Miles for true both my
legs and feet are like bronze now but sure
A little Furry too as that too is pART oF MY
iNHeRenT Nature as Wild and Free too…
SMiLes mY FriEnd as long as ‘they’
let me do it for free i will but
no.. no longer will i sell my
soul to anyone as i already
did that for pay for 33
Years and somewhat
in School For 19
Years too..
The Voice within..
aLL those years JusT
patiently waiting to come
out in both Song and Dance..
Free my FriEnd JusT Free A Dance
Song with God is what all of this is..
Sure.. A never ending nether land story
Prayer NoW With God Too A MaGiC NeVeR
Ending White Magic Way oF LoVE For ALL..
tHeRe are No limits or Expectations in Free and
Love when Real other than give and share and give again..
5:50 AM in the morning is really Early in Egypt mY FriEnd my
Hopes for you are to one day be able to just Sleep in Love and Wake
Dance and Sing Love alWays MoRE NoW for howEver is Great For you..
JusT A Prayer
mY Friend
JusT A Prayer For You.. too..
As Jimmy Stewart might Refrain
to: “It is a Wonderful Life” for anyone
who and that is able to Give and share
Love Free iNSpiRinG SMiLes of Free Love
iN OtHeRS too.. my FriEnd.. truly i for one can
Not iMagine Any HeaVeN HIGHeR than this but
it is also True God continues to sHow me HiGHeR
HeaVeN for it’s juST as True in the Dante’s Rings
And Circles Rigid Rot Hell they go Deeper and
Lower in never ending dARK Abyss too.. that
mY FriEnd is my
Perspective
For it’s
True i continue
to see the best of
those both sides of
Real Reality HeAR oN eArTh
NoW.. and For me at Least Heaven
Wouldn’t be Heaven without Hell..
strange as it may seem for me at Least it’s
True but with that perspective who can hate anyone my FriEnd
wHo WiLL livE anYwHeRe elSE But LoVE NoW A Gift GiVE oF DarKLiGHT..:)
It is incredibly amazing video you shared it, it is profoundly touching the heart, all are true words. I was staring and got every single words, and finally found it amazingly produced from the real life in between people. Great Share Sohair, and God bless
I am not sure why you can’t shake a woman’s hand or “dance” at a club…
and I’m pretty sure that Muhammed’s wife, his elder, his financial support, his advocate, his equal partner, his true believer was more respected by him than this video suggests.
Islam has never fully explained itself to be understood… but I am trying to understand you.
Thank you for your “follow” on my atlas.
The thing is, making a woman an untouchable and calling it “respect” is not true. And I don’t think all Muslims do this to their women. That’s not about them being “cool” that’s about them getting to know women as human beings. And knowing that a man can control himself without doctrine. You are not all beasts. Dancing does not make you a beast or a man who has failed. You can control your impulses without controlling your women. If you don’t come to understand that, you are failing yourself.
And… you don’t have to “fear” me. I am a married woman. I have been with the same man for 19 years. I think marriage is important and that you have the right to your religious freedom without shame. I just don’t think there is any shame in shaking hands with women or dancing. There is a deeper problem at root if you blame women for your lack of self control and subsequent enforced controls on them.
Anyhow… I welcome discussion if you want, and if not, peace to you.
Hello my sister in humanity.
I am pleased to see u in my blog saying ur opinion and take a part of ur time to see my post and comment.
So thank u so much my friend.
Fear is not found in my blog ….any one can express his thoughts freely ….life is good.😊
I like dancing a lot….but I do not dance with strangers..I dance only with my children….with my sisters. ..and when my husband was alive I danced with him at home …we liked dancing a lot.
A Muslim woman is like a queen.
No one can shake hands with her except those who are allowed to do so (her husband…brother…father…and the men who can not marry her like her daughter’s husband…etc)
I am a teacher at a high school…I work with men and women….all the men in my work respect me and consider me as their sister…I do not shake hands with them…they do not find that a bad thing…when I see them at school I greet them by saying peace be upon u and they say peace be upon u too….so I have no problem because I do not shake hands with the men.
Welcome my friend…I will visit ur posts and comment God willing….u seem to be a good person.God bless u dear.
Thank you for your kind reply. And your teaching.
Where I come from I shake hands with men because it’s not disrespectful to us and we don’t have to be so secluded or segregated. And when I was in Japan we bowed, male or female… as was per custom.
I don’t think my blog(s) will be what you are looking for, even tho you liked and followed one of them. I take no offense if you cease investigations.
I have experienced more freedom and less restraints than you… and I am grateful for my male friends. I am grateful for my sexuality and expressions and self respect.
If I may ask a question, Queens are what? When was a “queen” ever anyone but an obligated woman to an image that upheld a patriarchal design as placed on a pedestal or HIS idea of virtue? Queens don’t get to be human. Why would you wanted to be treated like one or hold that promise to daughters?
Show me one queen in all of history who was literally honored as a female because she ruled… and was not ruled by male doctrine?
I am part of what fights for more women’s rights not less.
Feel free to keep looking at any of my blogs… and I still welcome discussion. I take no offense if you need to part ways due to our different paths and I wish you much peace and love.
Thank you for your kind reply Sister-woman. I appreciate your comment as well.
And yes, I am a good person. Someone you can trust to honestly try with you in a technological materialist world.
I am also so sorry for your loss of your husband. My prayers are with you and your family.
Lovely you say that Muslims should not try to fit in but should try to stand out. That is something which is required from every lover of Allah, be it a Jew, Christian or Muslim. Allah requires from us that we are not part of the world but part of God and that we abstain from all false teachings, false gods and do not create idols as our gods not worship graven images.
Those who really love Allah should show it to their neighbours and spread the peace of the Most High, but also should not be afraid to show the false teachers or those who bring more damage to the name of the faith, be it Judaism, Christianity or Islam.
Try to get it! 
This is so beautiful and so important in these modern days
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SMiLes.. mY FriEnd.. Sohair..
the “Problem of Being Different”..
the Problem of Not Blending in for surely
For those who Are Different WHeRE i LiVE
aT Least iN the Overall Metro Area of Pensacola
in Two Counties “the
Problem of Being
Different” is a Dilemma
i Faced from a Very Young
Age on the Autism Spectrum
Without the Ability to Put Words
ToGeTHeR as Speech anything but
Precocious until age 4 which actually
Even Sets me apART from Most Folks
Diagnosed on the Autism Spectrum
as i am and my Sister are STiLL
Specifically With Asperger’s
Syndrome as my
Sister Could
Speak early
enough as normal
but meanwhile what i took
in as the evidence shows so far
was much much more in all of what
the Environment Brought me also from
A Young Age of not even being able to touch
Man Made Materials as Nature was and still is
mY Best FriEnd as God WithouT Man Made Stuff
StiLL to tOuch at least but silk will do.. as long as
long as it is as smooth as silk.. oh and another really
big dilemma to no fault of my own with Long Eyelashes
and Eyes that change from Green to Pale Blue too.. confused
by the McDonald’s Cashier with Slender Form and Thick Blonde
Hair too at age 12 For a Miss instead of a Young Man then as i thought
to myself then i never saw myself as a Girl and now others Do what in the
World am i gonna do now to fix this situation as a slender boy with green
to blue eyes and long eye lashes other than get my Mother to Rush off as
i Panic then to buy me a set of Concrete and Plastic BarBell and Dumbbell
Weights as i stared to the Bench Press Ceiling with Bird Like Arms and Legs as it is True what now Leg Presses 1020LBs 33 to 50 times on a Parallel Leg Press Machine
that is much more difficult than a 45 Degree Angle Sled Leg Press were once
named by my Friend Tammy As Bird Legs then in Middle School.. just another
Story of a 99LB Weakling Boy who even After Lifting the Weights For A Year
Moving into Puberty Sprouting up to 5 Foot 10 just a few inches shorter
than i am now at age 13.. weighed-in all still at only 125 LBS with
still no measure of Chest or Biceps or Quadriceps then.. thing
is i didn’t give up i never gave up i will never give up
as that is what those Bully Boys Taught me the
Most when they called a Boy who Loved
Girls in even Romantic Ways
from Kindergarten then
the F Word and
Not Fred
And told
me that Boys do get to
Smile or Laugh with Joy then
at the City Park or in the Middle
School Halls or they will get even
more than Verbal Abuse.. so.. sure.. when
the Fellow African American Children were
Abused i stood up for them too as i was their Unconditional
Loving FriEnd even then.. in Middle School Ways of UnderStanding
how it felt to be the Weak Fish in the Aquarium oR even the Strong
Black Fish in the Aquarium being told you don’t even deserve to exist..
thing.. is.. my friEnd.. i didn’t understand the Science of Where i Lived then..
And No.. back in those days absolutely no one dared to practice a Muslim
Religion and ‘they’ even threw Bricks through the Stained Glass Window
of the Catholic Church as the same ‘Southern Baptist Good Old
Bully Boys’ Told me Love wasn’t allowed as i began to
Question then who in the world are they saying
they believe in as the Catholic Church told
Me Jesus and God only reAlly Care About
And Do Love.. but ‘they’ Called
Me the F Word for
Just Being
The LoVinG ME
And Not Fred.. yeah.. i remember
just trying to Play Tennis off the Back
Board at the City Park and those Southern
Baptist Boys named Billy and Greg Circling
And taunting me with Homophobic comments
i had no idea what they even were as the F word
NoT Fred didn’t make any sense to me as on the
Autism Spectrum aT tHat mArk of mY life Metaphors
And Sarcasm-like Speech Would be a Human Potential
like Biceps and Pecs and Quadriceps i Would Have to Grow
iNto WitH Much Struggle in Blood and Sweat and Even Tears then..
but you see being outcast i understand as a whole worse than tears
as being outcast means not having anyone to even share tears with at School
if tears are even allowed at all without someone threatening to beat you up too..
SMiLes.. mY FriEnd.. wHat i didn’t Understand About the Science of where i lived
then.. is that now finally they did a study on this place i live per the Actual Science
of Sociology and found it is actually the most difficult place to be different in the
United States of America with Factors Cited As Several Military Bases and Stations
in the Area as whole Ranging STiLL from Air Force to Navy to Marines and Army
Reserves too.. With Also The Record too for having the most ‘RiGiD’ Churches
per square mile that were still then and now of the Fundamentalist
Flavor of Christianity Most.. paying more attention to the
‘Letter of Paul’ that says you do not associate in
Church with folks who are different than what
we say you must do.. and yes be..
Than the other Letter that
Paul wrote that says
Gentile Jew Servant or
Free Woman or Man No more
all Live in the Love of and as God Free..
Yes that is just about my Favorite Verse for
what it reAlly Still Means to me in Holy and
Sacred Oneness of Purpose as all is God with
No Separation NoW.. so.. anYWay.. mY FriEnd i Will Be A First NoW
wHo STiLL Stands up to anyone who is bullying anyone heaR STiLL NoW
For whatever God Given Difference they may have iNherited/Bred through
God’s Human Nature or even if someone is abusing another animal as such
too.. even if that animal is deformed or disabled too.. and it’s true too
i don’t even like to see someone pull down a Ivy Vine off mY Shed
as material stuff we build becomes more important than any life
Even Plants as PaRT of GoD too FloWERinG ColoRs oF God
More iN Change oF Leaves and BARk of Trees too.. nah..
Not even Katrina as i will even disagree with her
as she is afraid the Vine Will Choke a
Building out that has no LiFE
at all other than utility
for me.. NoW
so after all of this
iS iT NoW Any Wonder Through
mY LiFE of these challenges with the
Additional Stigma of inheriting the Bi-Polar
Spectrum too.. and being discarded by nearly
all my friEnds i had ‘acquired’ through High School
when i had my first really Manic Episode at age 21
that i had never experienced before and had no idea
how to Regulate and Integrate in both Emotional and
Sensory way.. ending up in a place for some weeks that
tried to help me but had no idea what Asperger’s was then
as that meant that none of the Drugs they used would help
me then too.. come out of the spot of high i fell up to down
then so far out of MINd and BoDy SoUL BaLancE then as Being Human
Alive.. yeah.. i was terrified to even go back to a Doctor for 23 years as
they never did come up with a label for what i was then.. and it’s true i
almost got sent to an Institution Likely Heavily Drugged with Drugs that
only made the whole thing worse for me if not for a Family Member who
had Political Pull as a City Council Woman who knew who.. i was before
as the First Student with another one to be put into the National Honor
Society as a Sophomore at that time in my High School.. yeah number
11 out of a Class of 381.. too but with the Emotional Intelligence oF
A Person on the Autism Spectrum that was so literally Retarded as
Slow still then.. and On to Decades of Work Life Where i still
had little clue what it was really like to be in a Social
Circle to say all the things including Lies that
you had to do to fit in still then..
so.. my FriEnd .. yes.. is it
any wonder i
stick up
for folks who
are still different
now.. and am even going to the
Trouble to Write a Bible that’s longer
than any Bible Written in Human History
for whatever it is inside as i Dance Free in Public
to sHow folks who are outcast heaR that The Outcast(S) wHo Is/
Are truly Strong iN LoVE Free UnConDiTiONal WiLL NoT onLY NoW MoRE
SurViVE but Do Epic Stuff thaT no one has ever done Before.. Particularly
heAR.. wHeRE Additionally Another Study sHows as far as ‘White Folks’
Even go with Pejorative Terms too.. that this area too is on the Top
10 List of what some folks name as Areas of folks who are
‘White Trash’ too.. Heavily Addicted to Opiates
Poor Living Together in Trailer-Like life
As Another Stereotype Real from
Single Parent Homes
Socio-Economically
Disadvantaged as Many
African American Families are
too for the Pecking order of which
group as less or more than the other
in Ethnic ways too of bullying folks down
another level to attempt to bRing some sense
of Self-Esteem up Higher than so-called ‘White
Trash’ still.. and that’s the other thing i have come NoW
to understand too after years of not understanding that Bullies
are Never Strong they are only Weak for what they have not gained
in LifE as Love And Fearless WiLL and Strength in a Real Loving Now
Grace of Self-Actualizing Self Confidence too.. be who you are is what
i surely say now as far as anyone else’s Will No Matter Culture and or
Religion too as long as the other outcasts among us are not harmed
by anyone’s actions and they too can enjoy the rights here in
the US for Life Liberty and the Pursuit of Human Happiness
foR aLL.. God iS ReaL.. tHeRE is Zero Zero Point Zero
Zero No Doubt iN As ME.. and God is BeYond
aLl HuMaN UnderStanDinG alone as
We Can and Will Only iN Allone
LoVinG and
Respectful
ways hold hands
And Stand TaLL God ToGeTHeR NoW
LiVinG WiThiN too.. For iT iS iN LiGHT
Absolutely True NoW For What we Do to
The Least of God’s Creation even an Ivy
Vine GroWinG uP As ViNE THaT iS A Harm
Done that we do not have to do to Consume
Life as we all have to do with and to each oTHeR
to BasicAlly Survive NoW.. Yes.. to Respect to Cherish
And to Love aLL iN Grace and Gratitude is to Love God
to me.. and when we have to eat each other in all the ways
that comes.. Do Say Thanks for the Grace of the Meal at Life at Hand
still now.. and no.. of course i don’t literally mean cannibalism now or
the such as that.. but it does happen at times.. in Snowy Mountains
iN Plane Wrecks and the Such as tHat For the Greatest Gift.. We Do
StiLL Do is the Will To Survive that sometimes must Come Before
A Real Pursuit of Happiness if we even ever come to understand
what Love is when
Love Lives
Free within
other than
Harming others
in a competition of who
is Stronger and Richer in Material
Ways and the Such of that Fresh Hell
Flavor of Life as Humans Progressively
TrEnd More Toward Machine thaN HuMaN
FearlesS uNCoNDiTiOnaL Love.. No NO nO NO
i am not ashamed about anything aBout my LiFE
NoW For Even iN the dArKNeSS aS Abyss oF SouL
For 66 Months aLL oF tHat dARKneSS oNly PrePaReD
ME For A GreaTeST GoD LoVE iN Me YeT to CoME True
iF Not For Being A Discarded Seed On A Road WithouT Dirt
i Didn’t Lose
thE Faith
oF LiVinG
i NeVeR GaVE GiVE UP.. NoW
i Value The DARk FoR dArK NoW
iS LiGHT And LiGhT iS DArk FoR LiGHT
STiLL Fed Still Watered MaKinG mY OwN
Fertile SoiL and SoUL STiLL GRoWinG LoVE..
oTHeR tHan tHaT Thanks For Sharing An iNspiRinG Video..:)
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Oh my Good Lord…i enjoyed reading ur comment a lot Fred…
(I never gave give up)….excellent..
Such a long journey of struggle…
The most important is that u became a defender of people who r thought to be different by others…
I wonder sometimes how a civilized society like US…STILL have people like those who are bullying others and attack weak people…
I was so upset one day when i saw the daughter of Michael Jackson on t.v and Oprah Whinfry was intetviewing her…she told Oprah that her mates at school are bullying her for no reason except that for she is the daughter of MJ…the rich man…
There should be strict laws inside schools and colleges to stop such actions…
I am proud of u Fred…u r a great example of struggle and victory…
God bless u dear…keep going and giving…
Smiles and Good morning..
It is 5:50 in the early morning in Egypt…
Happy Tuesday insha Allah..
🙂
♡
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Thanks So much For Your Words of Support Soheir
And the Story of Michael Jackson is one Forced into
Fame and Fortune by his Father at a Very Young Age
iN The Years of ‘Normal’ Development of Child
Hood Stunted away
in a place he
could never
really
go back
in a never
land that would
truly never escape then
until death.. SMiLes mY
FriEnd while some folks
long for fame and fortune
i abhor even the thought of
it as plague for those who have
it lose real freedom just to be just
to be with no body guards and other
more restricted life steps stuff as money
means nothing NoW after Subsistence and
Shelter and Love Needs are met.. Science too..
Proves this too.. yet some folks keep digging
a never ending hole perhaps as the LoVE oF
tHeiR heART too was stolen away from Love
when young moving toward materialistic
things.. power and status and yes fame
and fortune for a space within that
is never truly overflowing as
Essence oF LoVE in JusT
A Container for that
Essence oF Form
iN Golden Chalice Way now..
Fortunately.. i am raised with very
little Money Full of Love and tHaT NoW
my FriEnd is Worth aLL the Materialistic
Riches of so-called Fame and Fortune in the
World for it’s true now too although i have not made
A Lincoln Cent off of Dancing Long Approaching 8600
Miles in Public now for 52 Months.. and People often
notify me i’m famous and even legend now.. sure that’s
better than being a shut-in for the 66 Months before that
in pain and numb.. but i already had perspective That gave
me For What is Real in life and Not Real.. Love is all that is
for me my FriEnd to Give and Share and Sure Muse with
Entertainment of SMiLes MoRE to inspiRe otHeRs uP
instead of down without even the necessity
of even one word now.. only Feet of Loving
Dance wHeRe mY Sandals are now
emBossed with A
Word Superstar
as purchase
for now with
bronzed feet
from sand and
sun chiseled aLong with
calves and thighs for all of those
close to 8600 Miles for true both my
legs and feet are like bronze now but sure
A little Furry too as that too is pART oF MY
iNHeRenT Nature as Wild and Free too…
SMiLes mY FriEnd as long as ‘they’
let me do it for free i will but
no.. no longer will i sell my
soul to anyone as i already
did that for pay for 33
Years and somewhat
in School For 19
Years too..
The Voice within..
aLL those years JusT
patiently waiting to come
out in both Song and Dance..
Free my FriEnd JusT Free A Dance
Song with God is what all of this is..
Sure.. A never ending nether land story
Prayer NoW With God Too A MaGiC NeVeR
Ending White Magic Way oF LoVE For ALL..
tHeRe are No limits or Expectations in Free and
Love when Real other than give and share and give again..
5:50 AM in the morning is really Early in Egypt mY FriEnd my
Hopes for you are to one day be able to just Sleep in Love and Wake
Dance and Sing Love alWays MoRE NoW for howEver is Great For you..
JusT A Prayer
mY Friend
JusT A Prayer For You.. too..
As Jimmy Stewart might Refrain
to: “It is a Wonderful Life” for anyone
who and that is able to Give and share
Love Free iNSpiRinG SMiLes of Free Love
iN OtHeRS too.. my FriEnd.. truly i for one can
Not iMagine Any HeaVeN HIGHeR than this but
it is also True God continues to sHow me HiGHeR
HeaVeN for it’s juST as True in the Dante’s Rings
And Circles Rigid Rot Hell they go Deeper and
Lower in never ending dARK Abyss too.. that
mY FriEnd is my
Perspective
For it’s
True i continue
to see the best of
those both sides of
Real Reality HeAR oN eArTh
NoW.. and For me at Least Heaven
Wouldn’t be Heaven without Hell..
strange as it may seem for me at Least it’s
True but with that perspective who can hate anyone my FriEnd
wHo WiLL livE anYwHeRe elSE But LoVE NoW A Gift GiVE oF DarKLiGHT..:)
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It is incredibly amazing video you shared it, it is profoundly touching the heart, all are true words. I was staring and got every single words, and finally found it amazingly produced from the real life in between people. Great Share Sohair, and God bless
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Thank u so much Hussein for commenting and giving ur opinion..Best wishes !
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Most welcome, dear Sohair
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I am not sure why you can’t shake a woman’s hand or “dance” at a club…
and I’m pretty sure that Muhammed’s wife, his elder, his financial support, his advocate, his equal partner, his true believer was more respected by him than this video suggests.
Islam has never fully explained itself to be understood… but I am trying to understand you.
Thank you for your “follow” on my atlas.
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The thing is, making a woman an untouchable and calling it “respect” is not true. And I don’t think all Muslims do this to their women. That’s not about them being “cool” that’s about them getting to know women as human beings. And knowing that a man can control himself without doctrine. You are not all beasts. Dancing does not make you a beast or a man who has failed. You can control your impulses without controlling your women. If you don’t come to understand that, you are failing yourself.
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And… you don’t have to “fear” me. I am a married woman. I have been with the same man for 19 years. I think marriage is important and that you have the right to your religious freedom without shame. I just don’t think there is any shame in shaking hands with women or dancing. There is a deeper problem at root if you blame women for your lack of self control and subsequent enforced controls on them.
Anyhow… I welcome discussion if you want, and if not, peace to you.
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Hello my sister in humanity.
I am pleased to see u in my blog saying ur opinion and take a part of ur time to see my post and comment.
So thank u so much my friend.
Fear is not found in my blog ….any one can express his thoughts freely ….life is good.😊
I like dancing a lot….but I do not dance with strangers..I dance only with my children….with my sisters. ..and when my husband was alive I danced with him at home …we liked dancing a lot.
A Muslim woman is like a queen.
No one can shake hands with her except those who are allowed to do so (her husband…brother…father…and the men who can not marry her like her daughter’s husband…etc)
I am a teacher at a high school…I work with men and women….all the men in my work respect me and consider me as their sister…I do not shake hands with them…they do not find that a bad thing…when I see them at school I greet them by saying peace be upon u and they say peace be upon u too….so I have no problem because I do not shake hands with the men.
Welcome my friend…I will visit ur posts and comment God willing….u seem to be a good person.God bless u dear.
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Thank you for your kind reply. And your teaching.
Where I come from I shake hands with men because it’s not disrespectful to us and we don’t have to be so secluded or segregated. And when I was in Japan we bowed, male or female… as was per custom.
I don’t think my blog(s) will be what you are looking for, even tho you liked and followed one of them. I take no offense if you cease investigations.
I have experienced more freedom and less restraints than you… and I am grateful for my male friends. I am grateful for my sexuality and expressions and self respect.
If I may ask a question, Queens are what? When was a “queen” ever anyone but an obligated woman to an image that upheld a patriarchal design as placed on a pedestal or HIS idea of virtue? Queens don’t get to be human. Why would you wanted to be treated like one or hold that promise to daughters?
Show me one queen in all of history who was literally honored as a female because she ruled… and was not ruled by male doctrine?
I am part of what fights for more women’s rights not less.
Feel free to keep looking at any of my blogs… and I still welcome discussion. I take no offense if you need to part ways due to our different paths and I wish you much peace and love.
Thank you for your kind reply Sister-woman. I appreciate your comment as well.
And yes, I am a good person. Someone you can trust to honestly try with you in a technological materialist world.
I am also so sorry for your loss of your husband. My prayers are with you and your family.
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Welcome dear !!
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Salam aleikom,
Nice video.
Lovely you say that Muslims should not try to fit in but should try to stand out. That is something which is required from every lover of Allah, be it a Jew, Christian or Muslim. Allah requires from us that we are not part of the world but part of God and that we abstain from all false teachings, false gods and do not create idols as our gods not worship graven images.
Those who really love Allah should show it to their neighbours and spread the peace of the Most High, but also should not be afraid to show the false teachers or those who bring more damage to the name of the faith, be it Judaism, Christianity or Islam.
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True.
Thank u so much for the comment..God bless u !!!
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